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Originally Posted by SSC
Well, not exactly. That's one way to look at it, but the more time needed to write "for work" the less time you get for writing "for you." Not that occasionally you can strike a balance between both, but it's highly unlikely that happens often unless you just happen to love the hell out of the stuff you have to write for work.
Plus, I don't enjoy the idea of making something I love my JOB. Nevermind that after a while if you keep working on writing stuff you'll run out of material or forced into just recycling stuff. It's impossible to expect anyone to be always creative on-demand. Bach himself couldn't do it, nor could Haydn arguably.
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Sorry for using me as an example (again), but:
My scholarship covers my Phd fees and a monthly stripend. I also work in computer games, by choice (and have the PhD by choice again). Although I am getting tired of (still) being a student and would like to dedicate full time to a job, I have to admit that mostly I'm quite happy with what I have to write, very much so!
As for something you love, your job, etc, it does seem a little outwordly really. Sorry.
I feel the exact opposite. I've spent all my life, pretty much, in music and could not see me do anything else! I simply don't know how anymore. All I know is... to compose (and teach and other things around music, like play the piano, for example).
I actually figured that one out 2-3 years ago: My younger son was just been born and my wife and I were struggling to get by. So I started searching for part time job! You simply won't believe what I tried. Tescos (super market) and Waitrose (again super market), IKEA (for fucks shake), night guard (I was in the military police). I failed in every single one job. Someone told me that generally jobs like that don't really like people with Masters degrees, etc, cause they know it's for a tiny bit and don't fancy people who generally don't give a shit!
Thing is though that then I pondered, why not try to compose something for money. And effortless enough it came! It was a great joy to see it happen and... I didn't fail!
I mean it simply makes sense. Study all those years music to become... a janitor? Wait a minute!?!?!???!
In all wanting to do "what I want" and being all about fist fighting (!) about it, seems a tad arrogant! Simply enough. Why? Because noone is right 100%, because you do need to find the balance yourself to be happy, because you don't compose to get yourself out, this is autism, or masturbation, and can be done in the toilet, you compose to get yourself out TO THE PUBLIC, to communicate, to speak, if you want (otherwise, really why do you compose?). So the public also gets a say in this, even if you want to be 100% indiependant, etc.
And Bach, Beethoven and all da sh@t were all dependant of other sources and didnt' always do what they wanted.
Being a composer and being creative has nothing to do with "I want to write now, so I do, or I don't want so I won't". It never has been this way and I sure hope that it never does!
Gosh this post ended more aggressive than it should! Sorry... :-/