I've had the themes for this in my head for a year now, playing it on the piano, and only a week ago did I decide to start writing it down for orchestra.
I composed this in four sessions of 10 hours each (from 2 PM to midnight), practically non-stop. It grew up to 15 minutes of music.
The piece is what the title says, a funeral march. It's meant to contrast feelings of deep, savage grief with heavenly utopias that are constantly brought down to harsh reality and exaggerated pain.
There's a brief moment of insanity near the end, maybe a little moment in which one might be deluded by one's own imagination.
The only justification I can give for the weird sound/orchestration at some points is that it's as close as I could get from what I wanted to hear. Not a valid point, but there you go.
Here's the mp3
I'm sorry if I use the esnips player, but I have no other place to upload files above 10MB comfortably. Those who happen to have trouble with esnips page me and I'll try to send them the file through another way.
Here's the score
I'm sorry again, it's dirtier than Bette Midler's jokes...