Hello reader,
This is my first real attempt at a large orchestral work. I took a long hiatus from composing as I stopped loving it for a while. However, I am back and continuously working on new pieces again. But let's talk about the piece.
Firstly, this is not a full version. This is where I'm leaving it off until I have returned from my summer and back to uni. However, I am immensely proud of this work thus far and would like to share it with you. I am excited to hear any criticisms you might have. This piece is an attempt to tell a story about having happiness in your life but the uncertainty of being able to hold onto that happiness because it causes you to lose your happiness. To show this idea, I have two main ideas to explore. The first theme is the happiness theme, which first appears at m. 58. It is thoroughly disguised by the sections before and after making it seem less important, which is a weakness that I wasn't sure I wanted to solve. This theme reappears at measure 232 again for the loud arrival points. The second theme, which is much more obvious, is the theme at m.116. This is the desperation theme, the desire to receive happiness. This constantly reoccurs after its first arrival, notably in 214. and 298. Many more themes repeat and overlap, usually concluding at a major resolution. One thing as I work on this in the future is smoothing out some transitions, but my work is done on this for a while until I have the time.