Come back when I'm redeemed from my solitude.

I'm sure you're curious why I don't post like the past. The fact is I am suffering from major depressive disorder and I even can't make music like the past. This piece by the way ... is the result of a mental episode or something.

I was really sad and I really felt like my end is near. You know, I have depression myself (and I know you may struggle with the disorder and understand how I feel now...) and everything bad happened to me just in a few days. I am broke and it's hard to recover my business. My love just said "No". I wanted to do something new in my career and I failed. My friend of three years, just put an end to our friendship ... OK. I'm totally f-ed up.

I picked up my guitar, started plucking some notes. A simple melody came to my mind. I started thinking about a finished piece, so I recorded chords, a bit of piano and bass, then recorded the melody using Cello ...

This is the result :

https://soundcloud.com/muhammadreza75/come-back-when-im-redeemed-from-my-solitude

Hope you like it ...

I'm sad to read that words. And hope you get better soon.

Your music here is quite beautiful and it really describes what you told us.

Hi Muhammadreza:   The song is beautiful and sad. It certainly reflects your message.  I might like this the best of all your posts here.  

I too have battled depression/anxiety for decades.   I take psych meds, and counseling.  I'll go for a while, feeing neutral, or even good.  Then I might really fall deep into an emotional hole.  A lot of people don't realize MENTAL HEALTHis a real issue.  Your brain is an organ in your body,  and it can go from states of health, strength, depression, or weakness.  And some people mental health is something that should not be talked about.  There are various ways to deal with depression.  There are coping strategies you can learn to use..  Like you did here, I sometimes use music to express an emotion I'm feeling.  The process of creating a piece, helps you process your feelings too..  You are in my thoughts

I normally don't visit this section of the forum. The title is what really drew me in. I'm very sorry to hear about what you're going through! I can't offer or say anything that would help you, but I can tell you how much I enjoyed hearing your music just now. Your feelings came through very strongly, and I'm hoping for the best for you! Please take care and keep composing if you can!