Just gonna put my 2 cents in here. I recently was in a competition that to me, I clearly had the best piece in. I placed, but I didn't win. I was not very happy with the results. But, seeing as I didn't want to be entitled or piss off an entire community of people, I accepted my place in the competition with some grace. I know that I should have won, but what's more important? The connections you find and maintain in a community of like minded people, or your superficial (your sentiment in your rebuttal) place among them ("above" or "below")? Why would being in what you perceive to be a higher strata of composers on here, according to judges who you don't seem to respect, mean anything to someone holding the opinions about art that you do?
My point is this. Competitions are messy and oftentimes hurt your ego. But nothing hurts worse than losing your connection with people. I hope you find some peace of mind in the coming days, and if you need to chat, message me any time.